| Friday, May 5th, 2006 |
| 1:09 am |
Feeling good....
Man, everything is great. I moved in one of the coolest dudes ever.. I am finally out of that crazy house. The pain in my mouth is gone! I am starting over with myself I guess you could say. I am not as angry anymore. Less of a bitch.. at least I hope I am. Things have been going very well so far. I am having good luck. Something you dont get too often when your in the Godshall bloodline. haha! Mike is coming home soon! That is something I am looking forward to more than anything. I havent heard from him in the past couple of days so that kind of makes me nervous... but then again I get nervous when I dont hear from him im general. So next Friday I am getting my teeth pulled. hahahahahahaahahahahahahaha! I dont even want to imagine what I am going to look like. I will probably take pictures and post them just for the sake of laughing. I am probably going to be very swollen. The oral surgeon is knocking off about $550 off my bill because I dont have insurance and he feels bad because he knows I need to get these teeth out or something horrible could happen. So i am very greatful for that. I need to start looking for a job soon. I hope that the job I get offers benefits after 3 months because I learned that it is pretty damn important to have that. I never cared til a couple of days ago. Anyway.. I hope everyone is doing well. I cant wait til people come up to ROFO and check out the new place! |
| Thursday, April 6th, 2006 |
| 12:32 pm |
BEST NEWS EVER!
Well! I am moving out of this crazy household and moving to Royersford with Danny Boy. He is giving me the 3rd floor which is 2 rooms. I am not sure when I am moving out but its going to be awesome finally having some privacy. When Mike gets home he will be moving in with us also. It'll be a blast! I cant wait! One room is going to be my bedroom and then the other is going to be like the tv room/computer room. Its going to be awesome. i will probably eventually get a fridge in there. Mike acutally sounded excited as well. SO! this is awesome! I get to paint the rooms whatever colors. I was thinking red and black possibly for my room and the computer room.. I dont know. I am still debating. I am probably going to be putting a couch in the non bedroom.. OH MAN! I cant wait!!! What is even more awesome is that everything is in walking distance. I got two bars not too far away from eachother.. 711, wawa, giant, applebees, ritas, blockbuster, thrift store, WENDYS!, and a couple other resturants.. then right across the street there is an ice cream store.. they make some pretty tasty milkshakes.. THIS IS GOING TO BE AWESOME! Its the best news I have gotten in FOOOOOOREEEEEVVEEEEERRR! And the area is so quiet! Oh man.. yeah I am excited. I think I might start packing today.. thats how excited I am. hahaha! |
| Friday, March 24th, 2006 |
| 3:26 pm |
Nothing really new is going on here I suppose. Tonight I am going to talk to the guy who tattooed my belly rocker about modeling for him. I dont really know what all the job consists of but I'll be getting tattooed and going to conventions. Matt seems like a nice guy. Kind of reminds me of Death Metal Dan. Well his personality. And then there is the other tattoo artist that Matt works with. His name is John. He is from Jersey. He is tattooing Danny Boy. He is a cool guy. He was in the Army.. Just seems happy with life. Thats awesome. The shop is really nice too. Lucky Strike Tattoos in Quakertown. Well, I hope that Matt gives me the ok. I am sure this will be a cool experiance. I miss Mike a lot. Things only seem to get harder now. Now that Swenson is leaving for the stated since he broke his leg.. I am worried for him. Swenson promised me that he would look out for him.. I am sure Mike will be ok.. but Swenson was his best bud out there and it just sucks knowing that Mike isnt going to have him there. I mean Mike still has his other roommate.. but I never met him so I dont really know what kind of dude he is. Hopefully a good one for Mikes sake. |
| Tuesday, March 21st, 2006 |
| 3:01 pm |
Whoa! Guess what? There is a good chance I am going to be homeless in the next 30 days! My uncle hasnt paid the mortgage in the past 5 months so.. my house is going to be evicted.. or however you spell it. My mom isnt going to have any room for me.. so I wont be living there. Mike mentioned something about me finding a place in D.C. So there is a good chance I will be moving down there or move in with his family for the next month or whatever. I dont know. Its nuts. Life is so awesome. I hate the Godshall name. Its such bad luck. For anyone who knows me.. be happy that you arent a Godshall. haha. Nothing but bad luck.. seriously. SO YEAH! I am going to get tattooed today. MattNasty is going to tattoo me. I was thinking about modeling for this guy for his shop ... free tattoos... but I didnt because Mike didnt feel comfortable with it.. so I am going in there just to get some ink done.. I guess you can say that this is Mike's birthday gift to me from him. So thank you BABY! I love you so much. I miss you! Yeah.. so I hope that this whole deal with me having to find a place to live will be the begining of me starting my life over. I AM GOING TO BE SO LONELY! Oh well. I am used to being lonely I suppose. haha. GOD! I am stressed out so bad but happy at the same time. I am just going to take this as a sign.. a sign that I am supposed to be doing something better for myself. I shouldnt be stuck in this house full of people anymore. ::sigh:: |
| Saturday, March 4th, 2006 |
| 5:11 pm |
I just got out of work. It was a pretty lame day. I think I only made $30 and I gave my grandmother $10 for gas money.. so I am down to $20 if you didnt do the math already. Haha. Anyway, I work tomorrow afternoon. Then monday night and Tuesday night. I gave my Sunday night to Rhonda.. sorry Christa! I think tonight me and Christa are going to Michaels. At least that is what we planned on doing. It should be fun.. like always. Thats my day/night! I have been talking to Mike everyday since he set up his acoount as far as using the phone. I miss him so much. Talking to him does help though. He hasnt been doing too much I suppose. He just said that he has been working out, playing video games and then stupid shit that his .. i have no idea what the guy is called.. but he is making him do dumb shit. Mike doesnt like the guy too much form the way it sounds. ha! He says he is pretty bored and sick of being out there already. Of course, I dont blame him. Oh well, everyday he is just 1 day close to being home. On Wed. I have a orientation/interview for UPS at 11pm. I will be working the night shift.. 11pm to 3am Mon. thru Fri. staring off with $8.50. After 3 months I will be making $10 or more an hour. It should be pretty awesome. Those hours are perfect for me seeings how I am always awake til 6 in the morning anyway. I might as well get paid for staying up late. haha. I love working night shift jobs anyway. I dont have to deal with anyone. So I will continue working for Marconis. I should be bringing in about $400 a week. Which is good enough for me for the time being. I cant wait! Oh and the best part about all that is that I can wear whatever I want. No uniforms. Oh yeah, I'll be loading and unloading trucks and stuff.. so I'll be getting a workout as well! WOO! Alright! Thats all I have to talk about. |
| Tuesday, February 28th, 2006 |
| 1:10 am |
I would like to go into a coma for the next 7 to 9 months. I cant wait ti l I move the fuck out of here. Christa youre coming with me. |
| Sunday, February 26th, 2006 |
| 4:18 am |
I talked to Mike tonight online finally. It is 4 in the morning here and noon there. haha. Anyway. He is doing good. Its really depressing talking to him but I am happy at the same time. I dont know. Blah. GOD! SO annoying! |
| Thursday, February 23rd, 2006 |
| 6:43 pm |
Yeah....
I dont know what to make of things anymore. It is really fucking me up to know that Mike isnt coming home for another 7-9 months. I've been drinking ... a lot~ and it helps. Now I know why people become alcoholics haha. I wont get that way though. I dont get drunk. I just get tipsy. Anyway. I feel like if I do this everyday for the next many of months that the days will go by quicker. But that isnt going to happen. I need to find another job. I am not going to work at the Iron Hill Brewery because they want me to host and I think that is literally the only position they want me to have. I dont want to stand there and get paid nothing. SO I am going to apply to Applebees and some other places. Yeah, I dont think any of this is going to really help to deal with Mike being gone either but.. we'll see. |
| Wednesday, February 15th, 2006 |
| 9:39 am |
"Hey There Delilah" Hey there Delilah What's it like in new York city I'm a thousand miles away but girl tonight you look so pretty Yes you do Time square cant shine as bright as you I swear its true Hey there Delilah Don't you worry about the distance I'm right there if you get lonely Give this song another listen Close your eyes Listen to my voice its my disguise I'm by your side Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me What you do to me Hey there Delilah I know times are getting hard But just believe me girl Someday ill pay the bills with this guitar We'll have it good We'll have the life we knew we would My word is good Hey there Delilah I've got so much left to say If every simple song I wrote to you Would take your breath away I'd write it all Even more in love with me you'd fall We'd have it all Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me A thousand miles seems pretty far But they've got planes and trains and cars I'd walk to you if I had no other way Our friends would all make fun of us and we'll just laugh along because we know That none of them have felt this way Delilah I can promise you That by the time that we get through The world will never ever be the same And you're to blame Hey there Delilah You be good and don't you miss me Two more years and you'll be done with school And ill be making history like I do You know its all because of you We can do whatever we want to Hey there Delilah here's to you This ones for you Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me Oh its what you do to me What you do to me Plain White T's......... Song is soooo good. I love you baby. |
| Friday, February 10th, 2006 |
| 4:29 am |
I am so nervous about flying to California. My flight is at 4:20pm.. I am trying to not sleep at all for the sake of sleeping the whole way to Vegas. Then I have a 2 hour layover. Then to Cali. I can't wait to see Mike. It's going to be so awesome. SO EXCITED!!!! Yeah so he is supposed to leave for Iraq next Sunday. SO fucked up! I keep thinking that he is coming home in a week or two. ... .... Blah. I love you baby! |
| Wednesday, February 8th, 2006 |
| 8:20 am |
Last night was a good time. A lot of people came out and it made me happy. I never get invited anywhere so I figure that I would just invite a bunch of people out as much as possible. I pretty much lost my voice from this weird ass cough that I have. Its not from smoking because there is yummy stuff clogging up my throat. I havent really slept at all because of that stupid cough and not being able to breathe. As soon as I would fall asleep.. I wasnt able to breathe. So I would say I woke up every half an hour just because this bullshit. Also... I would wake up and it would be too hot and then too cold.. So weird! I guess that means by the time I actually will fall asleep it will be in the middle of the day and I will sleep through the whole day. Meh, whatever. I aint got shit to do. I wish Spongebob was on all day. That would make my day. |
| Sunday, February 5th, 2006 |
| 1:36 pm |
BACDAFUCUP
I am going to California on Friday. I am so nervous. I'll be out there til Sunday night. God! My first time on a plane all by myself. I dont know what to expect. I am hearing that its nice over there so I am looking forward to that. And I am seeing Mike. |
| Tuesday, January 31st, 2006 |
| 2:09 am |
SO... tonight was ok. I worked and then people came in. I met this guy Matt.. definitly a weirdo but he works for the same company my Uncle Darrin had worked for. Anyway.. I asked if he knew my uncle.. he said no but it was interesting because he knew who I was talking about. Everyone knew my uncle and its just so weird. I love being acquainted with people that know of or have been friends with him. I just love hearing people talk about him. He was my favorite uncle. The tattooed man. I am thinking that I need to get the new Sworn Enemy.. the Deftones and some other CD's. I dont think I am going to spend the money til I find out what is going on about me flying to California to see Mike. I miss him. It's hard not being around him. I am doing what I can just to not think that I need him here. I am trying to be as social as possible. I love him so much. This is just a rough spot in our lives.. Like Mike would put it.. a test. Well I guess thats it for tonight. |
| Saturday, January 28th, 2006 |
| 7:36 pm |
These past couple of days have been fun and difficult. Lots of stress. Me and Mike are kind of on a break. I am trying to figure out things and understand what the fuck is going on in my head. I just feel like I have been putting up with this constant fight.. With Mike being in California it isnt making anything easier. I just want these next 7 months to go by really fast..... and when someone misses me because I am not around.. its the only time things are being said that should have been said everyday. It just sucks. I feel like I am going to be stuck for the next 10 years of my life because I am making my life only Mike's. That isnt really his fault but I just dont want to fight anymore. I dont want to be disappointed anymore. I just think the only way I am going to be able to settle down right now is if I had a plan. I dont have one and it makes me miserable. I dont know. I am confused about everything. I am in love with Mike. I am heartbroken because of this situation that we are in. I dont know what else to do. I am just trying to focus on myself and what I need right now because for the past few years I have only been focused on what everyone else wants. I want to meet people and make new friends. I want to go out and have fun without feeling guilty. All the things I wanted like 2 months ago are just fading. I feel that this is what I need to do. I need to live and breathe a little bit more. All te promises that have been made to me have been broken so I need to start making promises to myself and make it happen. Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: Portishead.... Dummy |
| Saturday, January 21st, 2006 |
| 6:52 pm |
I hungout with Schank yesterday. We visited Jimmy at Dominos and then went to Target in KoP to apply jobs. After that we went to Wendy's and ate a #6. It was good. I started to get a headache so I had him take me home. I pretty much did nothing but watch videos from ebaumsworld all night. hahahah. Then I got ridiculously tired and fell asleep after I got done talking to Mike. Today.. I did absolutely nothing. I felt shitty for most of the day and slept. Yeah. Tomorrow I work all day and night. I hope to make $200. |
| Friday, January 20th, 2006 |
| 2:42 am |
Thirsty Thursday.... the final thought
I went to Marconis with Schank. Jay G. met up with us and Nick ended up showing up to meet some girl. I didnt know who this girl was but I ended up finding out and good god. So Schank and I both warned him about her but it didnt even stop him from letting her makeout with him at the end of the night. Even though all her friends were at the Pub she still "needed" a ride. So Nick had to take her home. I hope to god he came to his senses when he pulled up to her house. I know her reputation. I feel bad for her dad because he takes care of her more than my father could ever. And she still just does whatever she wants and embarrasses herself and her fathers name just to be liked. Thats a shame. Other than all that I had a good time with Schank and Jay. I wish more people had came out but we'll just wait for another Thursday night. Tonight just made me realize more than ever to appreciate what you have. I am so glad that I dont need to hang all over random dudes for attention. I have my baby. |
| Thursday, January 19th, 2006 |
| 2:33 pm |
Its only been 2 days...
and it already feels like forever. Probably because I know that Mike isnt coming home in 2 weeks. I should just pretend that he is in California for the next 7 months. Yeah... I can't do that because I already know where he is going. At least I will be hearing from him while he is over there. I am sure everyone will. So I was thinking about what I could possibly do while Mike is gone. I mean I already have a list of shit I need to do.. but I am thinking more a long the lines of things to do to help time pass. I was thinking boxing or taking self defense classes. Going to the shooting range. Yeah, thats all I can really think of. Of course besides hanginout with my friends. It sucks though because whenever Mike leaves I like to just stay in my room for days if not weeks and do nothing. That is horrible. So I am trying to keep myself motivated. Today isnt really a motivating day. I feel like crap so I have an excuse. All that I know is that I want to be in shape and a lot healthier byt the time Mike comes home. Also to have my license back by then .. everything that I needed to pay off... paid off. I guess we'll see. SO yeah. Apparently everyone in my house is moving out.. So that means that the only people living in this house will be me and my grandmother. I want to say that its a good thing but it really isnt. We both are not going to be able to afford to live here so..we are probably going to have no where to go. I am sure we'll find somewhere but.. who knows. I don't want to think about it. It's Thirsty Thursday! |
| Wednesday, January 18th, 2006 |
| 8:29 am |
The Day After
Yeah so yesterday Mike, his family and I all had to get up around 6ish to get ready for D.C. I dont think we actually left til 7am but we made it there around 10ish. When it was time to leave Miek decided that he wanted to watch Alien 2... so we did that till we both started to fall asleep. Emily, Mike and I slept for the majority of the trip. When we got to the Marriott in D.C., Mike had to check in. Then Mike took me with him to go pick up his inserts for his gas mask and goggles. Then we went and visited Chris, Mike's friend, at the main entrance of some building. We talked to him for like 15 minutes or so. Then we had to drive back to the hotel because Mike had to sign in. I met some of the Marines that Mike talks about frequently. After all of that we went to the huge ass mall that has 4 levels. Its not as big as the King of Prussia Mall but its bigger than the mongomery mall. We ate at the awesome resturant called The American Cafe. The food was so good. The waiter was really nice and it was a good time. After everyone ate me and Mike walked around the mall looking for smokes. We eventually found a tobacco shop and the guys in there were DOUCHE BAGS! We got our cigs and smoked. After that we went to Radioshack to get a converter adapter thinger for his electronical shit for when he goes to Iraq. His family met us up there and then they went and looked at dresses for Emily for her prom. Me and Mike just walked around. He had to shit and I was feeling like shit haha. When we were leaveing we saw Eddie... I forget his last name. Miek talked to his for a little and then we all headed back to the hotel to say or love ya's and goodbye's. Everyone cried of course except for Mike and his Dad. I tried not to but I did. Like a big baby. Then we got back into the van and left Mike to sleep and we headed home. Both me and Emily slept for the majority of the ride. When I got home I pretty much went to sleep because I felt like hell. I slept from 8 til 8 this morning. I woke up a few times from phone calls. Mike called this morning and told me something about how his flight had been delayed or something so they were driving somewhere.... I was half asleep. But he is definitly on his way to California. God its going to be a long ass 7 months. I love you baby! |
| Sunday, December 25th, 2005 |
| 5:28 pm |
Merry Christmas everyone! Yeah.. It really doesnt feel like it. Oh well. I got a bunch of stuff from the family. SO my Christmas was surprisingly drama free. My dad got drunk last night and let my sister put makeup on him. It was pretty ridiculous. I took pictures on my phone but I dont know how to post them. Oh well. I hop eeveryone had a great Christmas and I'll probably see the majority of you soon. |
| Friday, December 2nd, 2005 |
| 2:25 pm |
I had an awesome night last night. Hungout with Buckley, George, Jay, Schank and Medlin. It was entertaining. Drinking. I was probably pretty tipsy. Yeah. |
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